Hello everyone, I hope you are all well!
I have given myself the challenge of a new daily habit. That habit is starting my day with yoga every single morning, with the intentions of doing it for the rest of my life. Why? Because for me, yoga has always been something I have been drawn to, for more reasons than just the obvious. I have always attempted it in the past but my willpower faded. Now with stronger intentions of keeping this goal I have decided to post a daily video and reflection. I am going through a whole lot of changes, from deciding what my personal and career goals are to my mental and physical health.
Today I decided at 5.30 am to get on my mat and just go for it after having written a post (that I will post after this) about why I haven’t been posting recently. But I somehow managed to delete it due to my own clumsy fingers. I haven’t slept in over 24 hours and I have been struggling really badly with insomnia recently. Before I had decided to roll that mat out and actually take a step towards doing something that would benefit every part of me, I felt consumed with anxiety and my body physically ached with that and the quiet noise of exhaustion. So whilst sitting at my breakfast table, staring out of the window whilst sipping my coffee. I thought to myself “what do you want to do Skye” in all honesty I didn’t want to do yoga, but my head fell to my shoulder and my yoga mat sat quietly in the corner of the room. I instantly felt as though this is a good place to start with changing the rest of my life. Changing my morning routine. I lit some incense, a candle and stepped on that mat.
Every position was hard. My body shook with pain but I moved through it. Listening to rap helps I have found. I am working on a playlist so that I have a specific one to help my progress and mind set. Throughout the experience I slowly felt slightly more at ease and I genuinely enjoyed it. Watching the video back made me realise just how unflexible I had become. Awful, for an ex ballerina who prides herself on such a thing. But I know it will take time, hard work and patience. Something I am willing to build my strengths with. Leo also keeps me entertained and shows me how it is done too. I started with only around 15 minutes of yoga as I plan to increase that time daily by five minutes as my flexibility and self confidence grow.
Once I had finished, I poured myself some green tea and started to plan my day. I feel super charged and ready to go after my mat session. With a far more clear vision of what I wanted my day to look like and what I needed to do to achieve it. So Day one is over and I will keep posting so that I can keep track of my progress. But overall I’m happy. Happy to be alive and happy to be taking steps to implement the change I want to achieve.
What are you trying to change?
Until next time!